When I was in college, my roommate, a guy named Mark, had been killed.
I remember a moment when I was like, What?
I didn’t mean to say that.
He had done it.
I thought, Why do you have to say it like that?
But I remember Mark was a really good friend of mine, and we were just having dinner together one night.
It was one of those things that you can’t help but look at in hindsight.
I don’t know why he had to kill someone, but I think he did.
And I think it was because he was such a good person, so good at what he did, that he just had no other choice.
And that was a very bad decision.
And we’re still talking about it today.
Mark’s friend, a dude named Kevin, was in a car with a gun and he said to me, “I hate this.
I hate this guy.
He’s going to kill me.”
And I was shocked.
I was confused, like, Who?
I just said, Who did you think I was talking to?
And he was like—and I was just like, Fuck that.
And then I started to cry.
I mean, it was a bad decision, but it was one that had to happen.
And when I said that, he was just, like— and he was saying that to me and he wasn’t saying it to anyone else, because I wasn’t really thinking about it, I was listening to the music, and he had just killed a guy.
And the thought that I had just done something terrible was just so awful to me.
And it wasn’t until I talked to him and I went back to school, I realized I just wasn’t thinking about the problem in the way that I thought about the person who had done this.
And what he had done was just that.
What Mark had done had to do with me.
It had to have something to do, or else it wouldn’t have happened.
And so I had to make sure that I didn, and I had no choice but to do what he was doing, and to make myself feel better.
Because I was scared of what might happen to me if I didn of course I was a killer, I’m not a murderer.
I’m a person who has a lot of empathy for others, and what I did, the way I did it, was not the way it should have been done.
But I was afraid.
And my fear was the reason that I couldn’t take that responsibility seriously.
So, you know, I got really bad PTSD and anxiety and depression.
And those are things that are really hard to deal with, because they’re very real and they’re there, and they make you feel bad.
And you’re not like, Well, I’ve just had this thing that I feel bad about, but that’s all part of the process.
You’ve just got to figure out how to deal.
And as you try to figure that out, you realize that this was the wrong way to go about things.
And if you just, you don’t think about the process, you’re just going to have a bad time.
So you have this horrible feeling, like this horrible thing that you have no control over, and you feel like you have nobody to blame but yourself.
And there’s this other thing, like I have nothing to do here, that is happening.
And these things—and this is what we’re talking about—they’re things that happen in life, that happen as you work through this.
They are not something that you get from your parents, or your teachers, or from your doctor.
They’re things you learn about yourself, they’re things in your life that you learn in a very direct way.
And they’re going to happen in your head, and it’s not something you can control.
And yet it happens.
And one of the things that happens with it is that it feels like there’s a kind of a connection that you’re having with someone else that you don’ know about.
And sometimes it’s a feeling of fear, and sometimes it might be a sense of guilt, or a sense that you shouldn’t have done it, or that you should have done something different, but you don’.t.
You know, it’s just the way your mind works.
So it’s very difficult to get over the fact that there are some things that go on in your mind, that are just a little bit of information, a little piece of information that you just can’t see, but which are just parts of your life.
And, you understand, it can happen in our lives.
You can see a little detail that you would never notice in a day.
And in our brains, the information that goes into the processing of information is very, very deep.